3月 2012
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550 : 怪談
going through channels just now, I happened to stop at turner classic. they always run great cinema, and to find the japanese horror compilation 怪談 was truly shocking. I literally gave a verbal reaction of shock when it came on. it’s actually still running, this is quite the find.
2月 2012
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549 : Snow
I didn’t expect all this snow this morning. it’s actually calming. everything seems quieter. quite relaxing.
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548 : Psychology
katrina has a lecture and a lab tutorial at conflicting time periods, two to five. she’s opted to attend the labs and view the lectures online at a later time. I’ve decided to sit in and take notes for her. psych I find is an interpretation of the mind. it can be heavily science related, or liberal arts. I think if we’re both taking on the lectures, we can explore all aspects of...
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547 : Updates
I haven’t written in a while. it’s been an eventful week, being back to lectures, not that I’ve been attending, but having to wake up regardless. as well I should note, the console is dead and I lost the cell I had recently. it’s been so sad. aside, I’ve remained optimistic. these things happen, it just so happen to occur all at once.
“Each time we don’t say what we wanna say, we’re dying.”
– Yoko Ono
“If you gaze for long into an abyss,
The abyss gazes also into you.”
– Nietzsche
“You can’t obtain true strength when you’re unaffected by weakness. Accept the...”
– Nicole Premier - ‘n’ [咎狗の血 11]
strong
asylumgarden:
I need to become stronger. not physically, but mentally. I need to do this for myself and not for others. become strong so that I can take whatever comes at me, no matter the circumstances. no more wallowing in this self-pity and thinking of what could have been done to make things better.
learn from these experiences so that you don’t have to go through them a second time.
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546 : Significance
I want to feel needed. a sense of importance. the knowledge that I make a profound impact in someone else’s life.
“You cannot save people, you can only love them.”
– Anaïs Nin
“Being a human being is painful, but that’s just how it is.”
– 京
“Death is not the opposite of life, but a part of it.”
– Haruki Murakami
“I’ve tried so many times to think of a new way to say it— and it’s still I love...”
– Zelda Fitzgerald
“The more you know who you are and what you want, the less you let things upset...”
– Lost in Translation
“Someone once said that memories are just fractions of the mind. When we...”
– 僕等がいた
“I cried, for happiness, for sadness, but most of all, for emptiness.”
– Daul Kim
“Any emotion, if sincere, is involuntary.”
– Mark Twain
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545 : Smoke
I can’t ink smoke. I should have thought of this before making it more than half of the piece so far.. I’ve hit a rut and I don’t feel working on it will help.
“When I saw you I fell in love, and you smiled because you knew.”
– William Shakespeare
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544 : Recharged
I woke up early this morning and just took time to lay in bed. it’s great! I feel mirthful and ready to take on work. usually, I dread it, waking up late and having only an hour to get ready and leave. I sat there thinking of everything, and I feel optimistic. knowing that I’ve started break too makes everything greater. I should sleep early and wake up early more often. I actually...
“If the present world go astray, the cause is in you, in you it is to be sought.”
– Dante Alighieri
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543 : Break
I’ve had a slack semester, only having two courses to worry about. I promised myself I’d find the time to work on art, writing, general creative things but I don’t have the motivation. the ultimate paradox, motivated when not inspired, inspired when not motivated. one always trumps the other.
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542 : Thirty Day - Eastern & Western
your zodiac sign and if you think it fits you : for the eastern zodiac, I fall under the sign of the sheep or lamb or goat or ram. I read this and I agree with a lot of it, especially under the artist and creative traits. under the western zodiac, I fall under scorpio. reading this I agree with a lot as well. I should state, I think astrology, fortune telling, and the majority of the...
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541 : Thirty Day - Facts
thirty facts about yourself : mmm as with the suicide one, I’ve done this before, and don’t feel I’d write anything different from the last. it’s personal post number one hundred and twenty four if you’d like to read it. I will note that the style of writing has changed, and I sound less sombre.
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540 : Thirty Day - Suicide
a time you thought about ending your own life : I wanted to spur this, and make is positive. so instead of writing about my own experience, which you can read about in personal post one hundred and twenty two, I wanted to advocate life. it’s never hopeless. when you feel like giving up, when nothing works, when nobody listens, when you’re ultimately alone with your thoughts and...
“‘If I but thought that my response were made
to one perhaps returning to the...”
– Dante, Inferno, XXVII, 61-66
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539 : Death
to hear adolescents taking on the goth persona, and speaking of death and dying, not out of depression, but for the sheer culture and the now mainstream light on it, is sickening. the macabre is something I tie dearly to modernity, existentialism, the loss of transcendental certitude, and to have the inexperienced embrace it when they can’t even understand, or greater yet, pronounce these...
“All I want is blackness. Blackness and silence.”
– Sylvia Plath
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538 : Velvet
valentines coming up this tuesday, I wanted to do something special, but alas I’ve a midterm to write that night. even tomorrow and the days afterward, she’ll be busy with studying for her own midterms, and I completely understand. there’ll of course be other days. last year, we kind of spent valentines together, as I had baked red velvet cupcakes, and we spent the rest of that...
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537 : Thirty Day - Religion
your views on religion : I’ll start by saying I’ve been agnostic for seven years, but raised roman catholic. I think 宮本 武蔵 said it best in his book of five rings, “respect the gods and buddhas, but do not depend on them.” it’s important to respect the beliefs and faiths of others, but in this case, I don’t find solace in them. being raised catholic,...
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536 : Thirty Day - Substance
your views on drugs and alcohol : know exactly what you’re getting into before taking it. know the consequences, your own limits, and recognize your reasons for taking it. personally, I drink and smoke out of leisure. there was a point when I wanted to drink to forget, and that’s never positive. I don’t want to be a hypocrite and say that you shouldn’t try it in the...
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535 : Thirty Day - Ten Years
where you’d like to be in ten years :
I want to be stable in all aspects of life. mentally, physically, spiritually.
I want to be proud of accomplishments. I want to spend more time appreciating and less time comparing. I want to share knowledge with others, gaining knowledge in the process. I want to be reliable and trusted. I want to be accepted. I want to not have to worry. I want others...
“I need to learn how to stop destroying myself, stop being hard on myself and be...”
– Daul Kim
“If you can promise me anything, promise me that whenever you’re sad, or unsure,...”
– P.S I Love You
“If I find my way through the darkest of days,
Will I laugh about the things...”
– Daphne Loves Derby - Cue The Sun
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534 : Thirty Day - Relationship
your current relationship status : I’ve been in a relationship for six months, starting on august fourth. I’ve written about her a lot before, so there isn’t all that much I can say that I haven’t already. she makes it so I don’t forget to relax, to open up. I also found trust and understanding, a selflessness. I would do anything for her.
“A mind needs books as a sword needs a whetstone, if it is to keep its edge.”
– George R. R. Martin.