2月 2011
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103 : Day FIVE
day five of project quit. I’m doing alright now, but this morning, considering I hadn’t slept the night before, I was in dire need of one. also at work! whenever a customer comes through drive-thru with a cigarette. -dies- it’s the worst. it’s like, when you get preoccupied with something else, and forget the craving, then it hits you right in your face. february 16th will...
1月 2011
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102 : 5:26AM
I don’t want to wake up tomorrow. I’m honestly considering just, handing in both essays tuesday with a late penalty. sleep sounds so so splendid right now. see what I did there? five word alliteration, with a lazy repetition of the word “so” why am I even mentioning this? because I’ve been doing scansion of a poem for nearly six hours now. crashing in three.. two..
Take the risk.
lindaphung:
So what if your scared? If its something you want, then just take the risk and accept the fall. Stop with the what if’s. Its not going to anywhere. Everybody is scared to take the first step but once you do, aren’t you glad you took it? The one step that may have led something wonderful or just another struggle to learn from.
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101 : -cringe-
smoking die everywhere isn’t helping this quitting situation. I’m only on day two. coffee need coffee.
“If you can’t sleep, then get up and do something instead of lying there...”
– Dale Carnegie
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100 : Close Reading
the pros of being an english specialist is you’re trained to read beyond the text. the cons of being an english specialist is you’re trained to read beyond the text. I find myself over thinking when things are quite simple, and under thinking when there’s so much more. this applies to anything and everything. I see a lot of things missed by others, but at the same time miss what...
“Most people are stronger then they know, they just don’t believe in themselves.”
– (via -tyratek)
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099 : Irritating
I noticed a lot of the people I follow are getting unfollowed randomly. this site needs to get their shit together. I didn’t end up heading to campus. I was going to get a ride from my dad but he came way too late, and I figure it’s too late to go now. ah well there’s always next time. perhaps I’ll beat dead space 2 tonight.
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098 : Crashing Without the Burning
Heading to campus to crash at a friend’s residence. It’s film night and we’re going to act really pretentious and analyze poetic cinema. Just kidding, we’re going to just watch movies. I’m not sure what we’re watching actually. I’d suggest some films but all of mine were wiped when I reformatted. -tear- It makes sense to crash considering I’ve got...
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097 : Strain
I think for the first time, I’ve felt the strain of cigarettes on my lungs. I woke up this morning having a hard time breathing. I’ve never felt so breathless. I know they do nothing for me. nothing. I think I’m going to try twentyone days without one to see how I fair.
“The more I try to erase it, the more vivid it gets.”
– Memory (via anniebanniebanana)
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096 : Disappear
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“I can barely conceive of a type of beauty in which there is no melancholy.”
– Charles Baudelaire. (via ruineshumaines)
There are songs that can really make you sad and...
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095 : Defeat
This laptop died yesterday. I was attempting to edit system files and of course messed up, and the laptop went obsolete. I had to reformat it, but I lost everything. everything. It’s like phoenix down, but you lose all experience and skills. I feel so disheartened to do anything.
DEAD ANGLE SHOW: LOTUS, official translation →
I close my eyes. This place is blue The toki bird cries The Storm took my heart away. Waiting to feel tomorrow along with the picture that’s now peeling and rotting away
Can’t erase the tears from memory Even this sound of darkness probably won’t heal anymore Somehow knowing that…
Tears come running down again from the memory Look around There’s probably no one to live for now…alone
The...
Reminiscence
sweetestofvengeance:
I’ll forever remember that you always smile.
With a little sorrow hidden in all your kindness. As if you, when your body refuses to cry any longer, have to smile to express your grief. When I look at you, I feel the deepest sorrow I have ever felt, and the purest happiness I can imagine. You take me to this place I could never reach myself. You prove me the existence of...
“The best way out is always through.”
– Robert Frost
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094 : Great Mistakes
From this title you’d expect some sort of profound tale of an unintentional incident which turned out great right? Instead it’s just.. I realize now it’s only friday.. I don’t have work tomorrow like I thought! To watch films all night? I think so.
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093 : Imprint
Lotus on blast, don’t care what time it is. I have work tomorrow -cry- I know I’m going to wake up late, as always and will probably have ten minutes to get ready before I leave. I finally caught up on downloads. I now have to watch, eight takashi films, kurosawa’s seven samurai, and kimi ni todoke, oh and starry sky. I don’t know if I’ll like starry sky, but...
dent-de-lion:
I wish to be forever curious (of people and theories alike, of hearts and minds, of what is real and is not), to forever question and analyze. That in itself is half of the happiness I seek. That is learning.
“The sadness of yesterday is not to be carried over to today.”
– Jasmine You [Versailles]
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092 : You Can [Not] Advance
Third time watching the film, but of course this time was better considering it was in a theatre. Only showing for one time, one day and so couldn’t miss out. I met asylumgarden! I know her through here but she also happens to go to my campus so even better! This morning I had two extralarge coffees and three stooges. This was followed by a slice of pizza and a coke. I got nauseous for a...
Keep your head down: Macabre →
miroticrainism:
I want you to open that pretty mouth of yours. Say something, anything. Curse me, hate me. Deny my existence. It doesn’t mean I won’t always be here.
Just like you…
But I know why you’re silent, for I myself have locked you away where I can’t hear your haunting whispers…
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091 : Possibilities
First order of business, new followers, greetings! I do hope you’ve gone through everything I post or at least the vast majority of it before following.. It’d be quite silly to follow over one thing, one drawing for example. I often post/reblog obscure or macabre type post. I’m actually quite the opposite I swear. If you want to unfollow by all means, no hard feelings. Anyways, I...
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090 : Epiphany
No more pointless pictures of myself. I started this because I needed a place to find/save/catalog inspiration/art. I didn’t expect to make acquaintance with so many great people, and ergo posting silly things. I guess I’ll focus on posting/reblogging more aesthetic, my original intent for this. I’ll keep the personal post, as this is still a journal, and of course I’ll...
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089 : Royal Bank
Fuck you! I couldn’t buy my book this morning.. The bank’s policy is, if you deposit on a sunday night, you can’t get the money until one or two days afterwards. So I went to the bookstore, picked out all the books I needed and then couldn’t pay. I wish I was paid in cash. Also, I forgot the battery for my laptop at home. If I don’t get a plug then I can’t take...
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088 : Dawn of the Dead
Tomorrow, I’m going to feel so dead. Waking up early, just to purchase books that I should have read for a lecture at 10:30.. Meaning, get to campus at 8:00, buy books, read all by 10:15.. I’m going to need coffee injected into my veins. Goodnight all.
If someone doesn't see you as beautiful, I will.
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087 : Snow Patrol
Shoveled five driveways this afternoon, and I think I threw out my back. I shouldn’t be throwing out my back at nineteen. I think it’s from working the drivethru at tim horton’s all the time.. The window is pretty low, and I’m quite tall, 6’2”, so I need to hunch over every time. Working tomorrow afternoon, not looking forward to drivethru, but I am looking...
“Even loved ones scatter like petals from flowers in my hand
So even if I...”
– The Final - Dir en grey (via andidsinggodbreakyou)
sixblacknine:
I really want to meet someone who can understand why I am like I am.
“Because love decays.”
– 愛しさは腐敗につき. (via a-knot)
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086 : Socially Awkward
I hate it. I mean, last year, at the start of second semester, I made a goal to make a friend everyday. I actually tried, but I get shy, embarrassed, and sometimes feel like I’m being a bother.
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085 : Grey Grey Grey
Tomorrow going to finally buy the grey/silver hair dye from pacific mall with marie. I hardly see her, and when I do, we go to pacific mall hahaha. We’ll typically do what we usually do. Grab something to eat, last time it was just waffles, then we’ll walk around and compare prices of palty/prettia, laugh at the cost of circle lenses, check out gundams, finally buy the hair dye, take...
Misanthropy.
boxofwhim:
–noun
hatred, dislike, or distrust of humankind.
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084 : Impressed
..by the amount of great blogs that I’ve been finding lately, most of them followers! I mean, I usually go through notes of post I really like to find blogs to follow, but recently my followers have been pretty awesome and I’ve got like.. a whole page of followers that I’ve followed back. Kind of curious where you all found me.
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083 : White
It’s so cold outside. I woke up for nothing. I got here late with less than thirty minutes left of my lecture. The only lecture I had today. I’m starving and cold and I really shouldn’t be complaining but, eh nothing is right. Debating whether or not to bus back. I can get a ride from a friend but he’ll want to work out and probably watch a movie back at another...
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082 : Back to Routine
I’m glad to be back lectures, readings, etc.. I think. I have no night classes, and no mornings so I’m not that tired today. Taking graphic novel course, romanticism course, victorian poetry/prose, and listening to music. I read comics, fiction about drinking out of skulls, dracula, and then listen to music. I have this semester set. In other news, I received bernie’s package!...
tearsinfection:
When I’m falling down, will you pick me up again? When I’m too far gone, dead in the eyes of my friends.